Happy Friday everyone!
I’ve not been sticking to my weekly posting schedule again lately (I’m blaming the pregnancy) but this post will explain all about my first trimester.
So in my last post I announced my pregnancy and explained how much of a miracle it’s been for Rob and I. If you missed it you can read my last post here.
So here’s what the journey has been like so far:
First trimester (Weeks 1-12)
I found out I was pregnant when I was 7 weeks, after literally not moving from my bedroom for 4 weeks prior because I couldn’t stop being sick and didn’t even have the energy to lift my head up. Even if there was no food to come up, it was like I was throwing up pure acid that burned my throat and my nose and completely eroded my tastebuds away. After the initial shock of being pregnant had started to sink in, it explained so much. All my symptoms suddenly made sense and I started to take better care of myself because there’s another little person to worry about now.
I ensured I was drinking plenty of water and started taking Pregnacare tablets which keep your baby healthy during the most crucial part of its growing stage. I couldn’t manage 3 meals a day as literally everything I consumed was coming straight back up (even liquids) and let me tell you, there is no weirder feeling than throwing up nothing but liquid. I tried to eat little and often and was eating small bowls of plain pasta, toast and snacking on grapes and strawberries. Most things came up and I was feeling constantly nauseous and throwing up 1-2 times per day. It really wasn’t pleasant.
Meeting the midwife
It was lovely meeting my midwife for the first time as she put me at ease when I explained how shitty I’d been feeling. I just about made it to the appointment I’d been feeling so weak. She told me my headaches and sickness, although unfortunate is perfectly normal in the first trimester and they shouldn’t last for the entire length of my pregnancy. I also have polycystic ovaries and could still feel sharp pains in my ovaries when I moved which was concerning me but my midwife said that’s normal too and the pain should decrease.
When I first found out I was pregnant I was offered an early pregnancy scan at 8 weeks which was an internal scan which made sure everything was okay and measured the baby as well as monitored the heartbeat. So my first ultrasound where I got to see bump for the first time was really exciting! I was disappointed with the service received from the hospital itself as even after showing several members of staff the letter which clearly stated my appointment they all said I wasn’t booked in, huffed and puffed that I’m not on their list, made me feel like a complete inconvenience and just walked off, leaving me sitting there. It took all my strength just to get to the appointment so I insisted I was booked in as I should have been and I was seen soon after.
Rob came in with me and he was laughing as when we saw our little bump up on the screen it wouldn’t stop wriggling and bouncing about! Although I couldn’t feel a thing as baby was so small, it was funny to watch. Once again baby’s measurements and the heartbeat was perfect and I left with several scan photos which I gave to friends and family, keeping one for myself of course.
I think I stared at the scan photo for the rest of the day and still constantly look at it just to remind me that it’s all real as I still have moments of disbelief.
Second trimester – Current phase (I’m at week 17)
Weeks 13-16 unfortunately got a lot worse for me. Everyone was telling me that the sickness would soon pass and I would start feeling a lot better very soon but I didn’t. I waited and waited for the awful feeling of depression, fatigue and migraines to go away but they only got worse.
I’m currently at week 17 and I can honestly say that only within the last few days have I started to feel better. I haven’t been sick since last week and from being sick every day (a lot of the time more than once) it literally is a breath of fresh air. My moods have improved as my energy has started to come back and I can actually get up and move around now without feeling like I’m anchored to the floor. It’s safe to say that I’m extremely glad I’m past the first trimester now and into the second as it really was awful for me.
I don’t want to jinx things as I am only just starting to feel human again, but thank FUCK things do improve. I don’t know how I would have coped if my entire pregnancy was like this.
What people don’t tell you about being pregnant
I say things how it is and don’t have much of a filter button. There are a few things that I have found out since becoming pregnant which I wasn’t quite expecting.
- The term ‘morning sickness’ is complete b*llsh*t. Sickness during pregnancy can occur at any time of day or night
- If you hate being sick and feel sorry for yourself when you are as much as I do, chances are you won’t be able to just ‘get used to it’ every time you feel yourself reaching for a bowl you will pray for it all to end and promise anything for it to stop – even if you’re far from religious
- Yes, your boobs grow and if you have itty-bitty-titties like me then you will be happy for the long overdue growth spurt. However, if you weren’t expecting stretch marks and veiny dough balls to suddenly emerge from your chest then you’re in for a surprise
- You may know that sore nipples can be expected during pregnancy but that’s the polite way of describing them. If you accidentally brush a nipple be prepared to pull a face of utter discomfort every time
When does the pregnancy glow kick in?
- Vaginal discharge is no joke. Yeah, I said it. Stock up on pantyliners because your va-jay-jay is on deep self-cleaning mode during your pregnancy so expect some messy underwear. Sexy :/
- It’s normal to feel a lack of energy. I mean after all you are growing a tiny human inside your belly, but the level of laziness you will go to is no joke. If you build a mini kitchen next to your bed full of snacks and drinks to save you getting up then don’t feel bad. If you can make your pregnancy easier – do whatever it takes
- The desire to live like a vampire has never seemed more appealing. THE LIGHT! IT BURNS, IT BURNSSSSS! You will probably find that your eyes have become more sensitive to the light and you will be closing your curtains and avoiding the outside world for a while unless you have a pair of sunglasses on at all times. If you suffer from headaches already, you don’t need bright lights to make you any worse
So that’s my journey so far. Today, baby is the size of a baby hedgehog/slice of cake. My bump is noticeable now but I feel the need to explain to people that I’m pregnant and not in fact just bloated. I’ve bought lots of cutesie little baby things and don’t see myself stopping anytime soon!